Buggy Mugger Mode Memory
After chatting online with my piano teacher, I remembered what I wanted to blog about.
Well, this semester hasn't been too smooth a semester with me feeling slightly depressed with everything about studying, feeling burnt-out, jaded... etc. Especially with grades being of great importance to most of the a*rospace cohort (and seemingly bad grades, though acceptable to everyone else who are not in such cohorts, are a no-no-no-no [double emphasis of a 'no-no']), I couldn't help but feel that this semester may end up as a disaster by falling behind further, resulting in a snowball effect affecting my GPA/CAP/mean-point-grade and subsequently my career and all although I still have not much an idea what that would be. And as such, I have considering something that my dear piano teacher has been constantly popping to me.
If you've guessed correctly, yup, it's the suicidal piano dip that I've mentioned before as a fall-back plan. Well, I deeply respect all piano teachers out there in the world but that would seriously be the last thing that I would ever consider considering the freaky piano examinations and all. But with such a depressing semester, somehow this seemed to beckon me to my teacher's (hmmm... how to I phrase this without getting hammered over msn?)... well... proposition. Although it's suicidal, I think I might (and no, this is not a hint that I'm definitely taking it. I'm still considering from time to time) just try it. And just in case some of you are worrying for me - nope, I do not have suicidal tendencies. I called the piano dip something suicidal, not suicide. So, technically typing (refer to the double bracketed statement in the previous post), I'm not considering suicide. Well, to do something suicidal merely indicates something of great danger, not literally murdering oneself. But that's my definition, so you could feel free to disagree with it. Oh well, it's getting late (or rather, 'early' in the morning), so I think I'd better end now and go to sleep.
Thought: Should I or should I not take it up? Arrrgh, IdislikeperformingIdislikeperforming...
4 Comments:
dear brother, don't be easily discouraged by your school grades. you still have a year or two more to go? who knows your grades might get better when you get to study the more interesting yet harder modules?
yes, taking piano dip is a fall back plan. but the most important thing is to "study", be it piano or engin, what you really like & enjoy. you must have conviction first before you attempt on anything that would take up time, effort & money, THEN you will do it well.
you never know, you might rediscover an old talent along the way, & work on that, like what i'm doing now (gosh, after how many years later)
by the way, D=Diploma. D can also mean Drama, Dance, etc. haha!!
- miss r
oh, forgot to add that asking God for directions is the most important. because that's what i did & thus saved much worry & confusion.
- miss r
Dear 大姐 (hey, I do know chinese ok? Haha), thanks for your encouragement! Hmmm, I guess I'll have to seek the Lord for directions but I'm pretty sure that other than directions, drama and dance are definitely out for me man, haha =)
It is a pity, that now I can not express - it is very occupied. But I will return - I will necessarily write that I think on this question.
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