Irritating Suspense
Hmmm, my piano teacher came back from her trip, and having my piano results in her hand, she refuses to tell me. All that I know is that:
- She is disappointed with my results
- My 2nd piece (being the longest piece) scored the lowest
- She thinks (yep. You didn't read wrongly. Puzzles me as much as you are puzzled, if you are.) the examiner didn't fail my 2nd piece
- She doesn't know if I failed (erm, refer to the above bracketed statement)
And as of now, I'm wondering and wondering how exactly on earth did I do for my piano exam (yes yes, my dear piano teacher has achieved her much desired effects of putting myself in her kind of shoes of suspense. But hey, did I not wait as long as she did for the piano results?). Of course, out of all the wondering, there should be conclusion of some sort. So, this is what I've decided:
If I passed: I'll thank the Lord, and my piano teacher =)
If I Failed (Yes, this is a list of items...)
- I'll be condemning the examiner who tested me, since it's an evil thing he did. But I'll forgive him, and that's after condemning him. OK, maybe I wouldn't condemn him. We'll (erm, come to think about it, it's "I'll") see about it.
- I'll learn a lesson never to bank on assurances in my heart, at least not for piano examinations. But I had a similar assurance for my hall application. How did I get stuff mixed up?
- I'll never take up piano again (classical stuff, that is). This is definite. But considering this, it's not like I'm going to pursue anything classical anymore.
- On top of it all, I'll go berserk and practice my piano like crap to prove to the whole world I can play other stuff better than most people who stop at grade 8. Yup. That's rebellion within me, that's usually felt and not acted upon (and especially felt with my history with piano examinations.). But this time I'll really act it out. And I mean it. But currently, this is just a thought. If the result is a fail, it may activate this thought. Thus (and again), I'll see about it (Hmmm, so much for meaning it.).
- The ABRSM grade 8 examinations would be a sore point for the rest my life. I saw such a posisbility in all my wondering.
- I figured I will be wondering about my results until I see my teacher for some song practice (ie. the super weird arrangement [upgraded]).
- I also figured I may be able to sleep well in the days ahead, but I'm not too sure about tonight.
Thought: How did I do for my piano exam? TELL ME TELL ME TELL ME (x 100^100^100)
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