A Dangerously Happy Cookie =)
Well, the past 2 weeks have been great =) In fact, I've never played the piano (l-e-i-s-u-r-e-l-y, not for examinations of any sort) so much in such a long time. Also, I noticed that my blogging frequency has increased, and here I am blogging again! =)
Well, staying in hall certainly has its benefits, but without a piano it can be quite a sad life. That's because I love the piano =) And if not for M&D, I would have no idea as to what my purpose in life is supposed to be. Oh, I just remembered I'll be serving this week! =) Ooo... I love playing for church, I love playing... (better not get into yet another happy frenzy again) Over the past 2 weeks, I realised that my piano skills have deteoriated although the number of keys that I could play in has increased. So, staying in hall has certainly made me a jack-of-all-keys (or rather, 'jack-of-more-keys'?) but master of none. This is bad. Really, really baaaaaaad [this word is to be pronounced over a length of >3 seconds]. And as such, I've decided to practise the piano more often.
But hey, something's wrong here. Wasn't I supposed to be lost, and lost beyond measure/words/imagination/hope? In fact, I'm still as lost as can be and new mysteries are being added to all my modules with each passing day (or rather, 'lecture'). So, what on earth am I doing at the computer blogging? Hmmm... In actual fact (of course, this is not to indicate that the above "In fact" has no actuality), I don't care. Yup, you read right (and you certainly heard nothing from my blog). Well, the exasperated side of me would be persuading me to give up for good (and yes, this side has currently taken over at this point in time), but the rational side of me tells me that by doing so, all the years that I've spent studying would have gone down the drain/sewage piping/river/canal/storm drain/whatever-you-call-it. Hmmm, what a dilemma.
It has definitely been a humbling experience to drop to the bottom range of my cohort when I used to be the top few in class since secondary school (never in my chinese classes though). It's freaky too. But then again, I guess I shouldn't worry too much about things, since I'm pretty sure there would be some a*rospace job out there waiting for me since the market's pretty much lacking of people from my course. Even if it weren't the case, I could do something suicidal like take up a piano diploma and end up as a classical piano teacher. But considering this, it would be impossible. I would have been looooong dead before this objective is accomplished since that was suicidal. And since I do not have such tendencies, that's out of the picture.
Hmmm... I got a feeling that my thoughts do not really link. I guess that's the result of the dangerously happy and exasperated effects that I'm going through now (and just in case some of you are suspecting something: No, I'm NOT on drugs). Better end here before more readers get lost in my train of thoughts.
Thought: I've got a feeling I'm not thinking straight right now.
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