Unknown Pain

This is bad… for some unknown cause, my left hand feels a little strange. Somehow, it had a minor sprain such that it only hurts in certain positions or when I am playing notes that range over an octave at times, and it would feel quirky in certain other positions. Otherwise, it feels perfectly normal. And this doesn’t help if I need to use my hands for playing the piano/keyboard in church for the next 4 days of my life. Strangely, my subconscious failed to notify me, even in the quirkiest manner, like the last time.

And since I don’t recall blogging about the last time my subconscious tried to notify me about spraining my toe(s) (seriously, I wasn’t sure if I sprained my toe or a few of them since moving any of them hurt. And don’t ask me how I sprained my toe. In fact, you should ask my subconscious how it did it, since I in my right/conscious/non-masochistic/lost-much-sanity-in-a*rospace-but-still-sane-enough mind wouldn’t go about spraining my toe(s), and on top of that, spraining a weird and difficult-to-sprain-thing like a toe, as compared to an ankle), this was what had happened a middle-length time ago (you see, it is neither a long time nor a short time. Thus, this is the best description I could come up with for now):

[In a dark, dark area deep within the subconscious region (well, it’s not a nightmare, just that I happened to be asleep. And since I’m sleeping without a dream, I guess all that can be seen is only blackness)]

Glass Cookie’s (GC) subconscious: Hey, something just got hurt.

GC: Yea, I feel it. Strange. Ai ya, don’t disturb me. I want to sleep.

GC’s subconscious: Hey, don’t you want to know what hurts? Alright, I shall increase the electrical signal to the nerves.

GC: Hey, that hurts. Fine, something hurts. But… heck la. I want to sleep (rather, it should be: I do not want to wake up yet, because, well.. I'm still asleep). Leave me alone.

GC’s subconscious: Hey, the nerves in your toe(s) would like to convey the message that it/they is/are hurting.

GC: Yea, I get it. Leave me alone.

GC’s subconscious: OK, whatever you say.

[Then, at different intervals ranging between minutes to an hour, for the rest of the number of hours before GC wakes up, the following happened. It happened about 5 to 10 over times]

GC’s subconscious: Hello! =) Say, could you feel the pain? Something’s hurting.

GC: Not again! Arrrgh, I want to sleep. Leave me alone!

GC’s subconscious: Okay!

[Then GC finally wakes up]

GC’s conscious (yup, it’s no longer the subconscious. Well, this is just my own theory, thus, you might disagree, but... GC has woken up, hasn’t he? Thus, the subconscious is now relatively unconscious, and the unconsciousness has somewhat become conscious, and the conscious is not the subconscious. Hmmm, this might sound confusing. OK… before I drift off to another topic…): Hey, your toes hurt!

GC’s thoughts (Well, it’s GC’s thoughts as GC didn’t wake up in the morning talking to himself. That would be a disturbing thing. So, you could treat it as GC’s thoughts = GC. And again, this is just my own theory: the thought and the conscious are different elements as what he feels [ie. nerves] and what he thinks [ie. considers, analyzes] may not necessarily originate from the same source although both do happen in the same place – the brain. Well, before I drift off yet again to another irrelevant topic): Arrrgh! My toes hurt.

GC’s conscious: Hey, you notice the pain? It’s not small. So, it must have been badly hurt.

GC’s thoughts: Hmmm, what happened? I wonder if this is a sprain…

GC’s subconscious (well, though it’s relatively dormant, it does become activated once in a while to do stuff, be it relevant, irrelevant, called-for or uncalled-for): Hey, remember our conversation just now/last night/just now/last night/just now/last night? (You see, sometimes the subconscious likes to get one to think about whether it was just now or last night. And somehow, it likes to present both possibilities and repeat them to continually confuse one over the choice of which term to use although they may well mean/be the same)

GC’s thoughts: What???!!! I subconsciously sprained it?

GC’s subconscious: Yup. You did.

GC’s thoughts: Hey, I didn’t! YOU (ie. GC’s subconscious) did!!!


Thought (Well, though it’s also GC’s thoughts, it is not a continuation of the above recount. And as such, it's not set as yellow in colour): I hope my subconscious does not start spraining stuff without telling me.